FERNS LITTLE CORNER OF RAMBLING

im just making this because i dont want to annoy my friends with thoughts i desperately want to get out. things will be labeled as random thoughts, mental stuff, rants, vents blah blah blah, with the appropriate trigger warnings if need be. have fun spying on me you fuckin weirdo /j /silly
also mental stuff is just me talkin about my mind, not vents or anything like that. still might be some sensitive stuff tho

also i stole this idea from frap teehee :3c

  • 11/30 12:59 AM - MENTAL STUFF

  • TW: EATING DISORDER i've been decently sure (like 80%) that i have an eating disorder of some kind. most of the time i have no desire to eat at all, even if im feeling literal pain from how hungry i am. cherry on top, when i try to eat anyway, it's physically difficult, my throat is like "nuh uh, that aint food. dont swallow that" and most of the time i almost throw up if i manage to swallow it anyway. and my dad still wont take me to the doctor :D

  • 8:39 PM

  • how do i even make friends. like how do i have friends idk how to make friends they just appear in my life where the fuck did they come from

  • that reminds me its only gonna be a matter of time before i vent about my ex on here :3

  • 5:42 AM - THE THINKER

  • im still thinking about the mysterious third alter. where did they come from and who are they. i dont even know anything about them other than what i can gather from their messages :( i think they might have written that thing in the reminders section of the main page because that writing really does NOT feel like mine

  • 5:00 AM - MINOR VENT + YAPPING

  • the best part about being nocturnal is that all your friends are either offline or online waiting for the sleepiness to kick in so you cant really talk to them. i wish jp wasnt so busyyy i wanna talk to himmmm *crumples up into a paper ball*

  • anyway im prob gonna move this to neocities or something so i can insert images n iframes n stuff without the worry of the aforementioned element limit carrd imposes. but im also lazy and shit hhgfdjhfdg

  • also i havent slept at all (i tried trust me)

  • why do i feel bad for writing so much here. i literally made this so i wouldn't feel bad about writing all this in someones dms. what the fuck. why is my brain like this. AUGH

  • 2:02 AM

  • theres so much shit i wanna write about but like i dont want a big burst of stuff right as i make this :(

  • 11/29/24 1:47 AM - MENTAL STUFF

  • yaay i made the thing!! im using one list for this since ik im gonna hit the element limit eventually. anyway um. might as well kick it off with mental stuff :333

  • tw: dissociation (idk if this is necessary but im not takin chances) when im alone i HEAVILY dissociate. not intentionally it just kinda happens, my soul gets sucked outta my body but i still see through my eyes. i have a moment of "who and what am i" and it always feels really REALLY weird. it's a feeling i cannot describe with words, but then again i can't describe a lot of things with words so maybe thats just a me problem (update a couple hours later i think i can accurately describe it as Being In Third Person)

  • anyway i really should go sleep. oh well :)